I feel like such a sore loser!
Back in late fall, I entered the 2014 TCS New York City Marathon Lottery. I waited patiently, or impatiently, for the day when the lottery would be held, only to learn the drawing was postponed like a week or two. After swearing I’d never do another full marathon (sprained ankle at mile 21 of the Philadelphia Marathon), I convinced myself that NYC would be the exception.
The drawing day came and I was off work, not purposely, I’m off every Wednesday. I’m logging into my credit card account on my iPhone and refreshing the darn thing ALL freaking day. Nothing. No pending charges. No emails. I was on twitter getting angry with tweets from peeps saying that they got in again, third, fifth, seventh year, etc.
Me? Zilch. What, NYRR, I don’t get a stinkin’ chance? Not fair.
Then the email came from New York Road Runners – “The drawing is closed; you were not accepted.” I was so upset – not only did I stay up all night nursing our dog, he died that morning. The fact that Oreo died triggered a huge anger in me. I felt like a sore loser, although I know things sometimes happen for a reason.
I then decided that I would once again train and run the 2014 Philadelphia Marathon. I was only going to run the half, then I realized how unhappy I was with my finish time and want to do better. I will train better and be more consistent, and if I don’t beat my time from last year, then I know I went in giving it my all.
As for the TCS NYC Marathon? I can try again next year, and the next…