Comparing myself to other runners is something that I’ve been doing since the day I started distance running. Having a time goal in mind is not a good thing when you’ve never attempted a race before. During Disney’s Princess Half Marathon, I had a goal in mind, not one that I wanted but that I had to have, and guess what? It didn’t happen and I increased the risk of injury.
My goal after that became to cross the finish line. That didn’t last long.
My last half marathon was better than the previous one, but I was still upset about it. Having finished a half marathon before, I created a time goal in my mind and once I knew I wasn’t making that goal either, I switched mind set and it became my goal to finish.
I wanted a sub-2:30 half and since the course was very hilly I knew I was in trouble. I never wanted to see the finish line so bad. I kept my eye on certain people that I was determined to pass and not let them pass me. While it was challenging to keep that goal, it also increased the chance of injury because I was forced to run at a pace that was beyond my comfort level, and I got injured.
Today I went for a 4-mile run at the park and took my dog, Sophie. Sophie is a highly-energetic pup, but we have not run in the park in two years, we’ve just walked. Lately I’ve been running sub-10:00 mm and was upset earlier today that I didn’t hit that. Sophie was excited to be running at the park and I had to go at her pace of course, running at 11:00-11:30 mm.
Runners, fast runners passed us and I would glance back and wish I ran that fast! It’s not how fast I can go or how far, it’s about creating a goal and getting there safely. If I have to take walk breaks, I will do so, and I will not compare myself to other runners because we all were beginners at one point.
I’m my own worst enemy and I’m determined to change that!!
Bedtime yoga time, good night.